Dearest Princess Sophia:

Today was a good day except when mommie asked me to look at a casket online. It was so hard to think of losing you even though grammie is trying very hard not to be selfish. I want you here with us to be our daughter, granddaughter, great-granddaughter, little sister, cousin, niece and grand-niece. But not if it means you will be sick and in pain. My faith that all things that happen are as they should be is the thing that keeps me from driving off a cliff. LOL I never imagined our family might have two angel babies. It's hard not to think of what SHOULD be, if we actually had a say so in the matter. Your mommie is so brave to bring you into the world for us to shower with love for as long as we are blessed to have you. We'll take whatever time we get with you, whether hours, days, weeks, months, or years and be thankful for each tick of the clock. Late at night, when I take a deep breath, I can almost smell your breath and your hair and your skin. I count the days until we can celebrate your 'birth' day with a mix of anticipation and dread. I'm not sure which emotion wins out. It depends on the day. You, my sweet baby girl, will be welcomed with open arms.