As I sit here and look at the calendar, I can't believe that there are only 7 1/2 weeks left until Sophia will enter our lives. Joe and I never thought that we would be going through this again, let alone putting our family through this again. A lot of people don't understand why we would and we understand that this decision is not the right one for everyone. We question our decision daily and we will probably never truly know if we made the right decision. When we found out we were pregnant, I knew that instant that this little baby growing inside of me was going to be affected the same way that JoJo was. We had already decided that if the baby was affected that we would terminate the pregnancy because we couldn't stand the thought of losing another baby.
How will it affect our living children? How will it affect our family and friends? How will it affect our relationship?
We thought that we would find out if the baby was affected around 12 or 13 weeks just like we did with Emma. Leslie, our genetic counselor, asked if we thought one way or another before the results came back. This pregnancy was so much different than JoJo and Emma. I told her that it was either going to be an affected girl or a healthy boy, but my gut was telling me that this child was affected. Due to complications we didn't find out the results until 18 1/2 weeks pregnancy. By then she was already squirming and kicking about. Do we go in for a termination or do we bring this precious baby into this world and show her how much she is loved?
We obviously chose to bring her into this world and shower her with love and affection. We don't know if she will be here for a couple of days, weeks, months, or years. The doctors can't tell us definitely one way or another. They say that the severity runs similiar in families, but no one knows for sure. We just hope that in the end we have made the right decision for us and for our family.
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Well This little baby is gonna know a lot of love and affection, thats for sure. I think of you guys and pray for you daily. And if you need anyone to ramble and just talk to, your Bah Humbug 2010 co-founder is usually around! **hugs**
ReplyDeleteYou awe and inspire me my friend. How I wish I could be ther with you now. Just a couple days ago I ran across a picture of you and I standing on a frozen pond in Colorado. Good times, Raz wold say, Good times! I miss you.
ReplyDeleteI imagine ALL God's angels surrounding you and your family now embracing you with gentle arms in strength and love. You are in good hands my friend. I love you dearly!
I am praying to you because I know you will answer, O God. Bend down and listen as I pray.
~ Psalm 17:6, NLT
Sarah this isn't the first time I've said this to you but now I'll let the rest of the world know. You are one of the best people I've been blessed to have in my life. You have an enormous heart and a pure soul. LOL, you can said you are the "biggest", "short person" I know. You give so much and never except anything in return. That alone makes you an amazing women. I'm so proud to call you my bestie!! You and Joey's decision to bring Sophia into this world is a blessing for us all; even though it was one of the hardest decisions you'll ever have to make. I can promise you that Sophia knows already how loved she is and will always be. Whether it is a minute, a day, a week or a lifetime, your decisions were worth it. She is already an inspiration to so many (just like her MOMMY). I love you!!
ReplyDeletesarah and joey my throughs and prays have been with you all along the way i just want you to know how much i love and appreciate you baby grace is so special to have amazing parents as you if we can help in any way you got it .
ReplyDeletemay god bless and keep you all
tina hatfield