The last several hours have been a roller coaster of emotions. Our Miss Sophia's breathing stops intermittently and she appeared to be in distress after one episode. We ran around like chickens with our heads cut off getting the right dose of morphine into her tiny body and she seemed much calmer (who wouldn't after a good dose of morphine :)) and it did help her breathing a bit. Or at least that's what we're telling ourselves. Her coloring is turning from bluish to gray. JoJo all over again.
I haven't taken 15 minute showers since I was a kid and not paying the water bill, but it's soothing to stand and just let the water beat on me. Sarah has a rash from head to toe. She has blister like sores just under her incision where they did a 'dry shave' of the area just prior to the c-section. Nothing seems to relieve it much. It hurts just looking at it.
We've cried so much we're literally devoid of tears for now. Our sweet baby girl is not far from soaring with the angels we fear.
We had diversion with several good friends stopping by today for brief visits. It helped to laugh and relieve some of the all-consuming grief we are experiencing. The kids got outside to play and it did all of us a world of good. Even Joey looked more relaxed then I've seen in the days since Sophia graced (no pun intended) our lives with her entrance.
We feel the incredible support you are all sending through prayers, messages, and posts to the blog. It means more to us than you can know. The Tacoma Police wives are bringing meals, and Sarah's 'almost favorite' Uncle Pat & Aunt Lu Corso have given us reprieve by bringing 'supplies' and keeping the kids entertained. The thoughtfulness of our circle of family and friends has blessed us many times over. I hope we can "Pay It Forward" throughout our life's journey.
The most gut-wrenching events of the day? Her big sister Emma Jolynne holding her and singing (in an angelic voice) "Jesus Loves Me" and her cousin Arianna Lynne kissing her goodnight and saying "I'll Love You Forever".
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Oh my!!! Sounds like the journey is pretty rough right now. I am so sorry that such loving wonderful people have to endure such a journey..But you are all such strong loving people that I couldn't imagine an angel like Sophia being born to anyone else....She needed parents and family like the ones she was given. It was nice to read that you were able to have a little break from the pain everyone is going through. I know the next few days are going to probably be the hardest, next to those with Jo-Jo. I am sorry..I know that it may not mean much..But our thoughts are prayers are even stronger and more often for you all...
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Sarah
While we all think what we have to deal with daily is difficult, it is nothing compared to what you are going thru. God had his reason for this which someday we will understand, but now he waits to take this angle into his arms and take care of her. You are all being so strong and I know that your most difficult time is yet to come. Please know that all our prayers are with you even those of us who do not know you. May God give you grace and peace as this time continues and may Sophie fly as she makes her way to heaven and the God that waits for her.
ReplyDeleteDear Lord - Thank you for surrounding the family with your love and peace. We know that you have plans for Sophia and the rest of us you are leaving here on earth. Thank you for giving the family peace in your decision to bring your Angel Sophia home. Thank you for keeping Sophia comfortable and pain free. The Littlest Princess doesn't deserve to endure any suffering. While we don't understand your decision Lord God, we will accept it and know that, in time, the family will be together again. Thank you for protecting Jojo and Sophia, and for filling us with your strength. We love you Lord God, in Jesus name I pray. Amen.
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