After Sophia Grace-Day 2

It does not seem possible the blessed event we planned and waited for for nearly nine months is over. It's like all the energy you put into planning a wedding only without the happy ending (well, at least 50% of the time according to statistics!).

It feels like a dream. Was our precious child really here? And gone so fast? We foolishly expected she would stay with us longer. JoJo was so sick and he was here nine days. Why only six? What is the lesson? Everything is a blur. I remember more vividly the time with JoJo than with Sophia. Why? We had significantly more quality time with SoSo. More hands to spread the work to keep us fed and clothed. My mind races to search for the memories. We barely slept. We spent every minute we could with her and yet we still feel cheated.

I'm hit by the realization we will never have the answers we seek. And that has to be enough. But it isn't and never will be.