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Or 8,640 minutes or 144 hours it doesn't matter how you count it, it's still only 6 days. Six days...filled with joy, sorrow, and alot of tears. I feel peaceful, and ravaged all in the same breath. How can this happen to a mother, my brother-in-law said something last night as my sister eyes were welled with tears he told her, "sometimes mothers make babies for earth, and sometimes mothers make angels for heaven", couldn't have said it better myself...as hard as it was to hear. None of us know why God chose this to be a part of Sarah and Joe's journey but I do know that they have handled it with "Grace" I'm worried about the kids, all four of them are napping now, how will we tell them what has happened while they slept....we don't have that answer yet. I am so grateful that Sophia got to come home and be with us all, if only for a few days. Joey and I had a brief conversation last night as we were trying to get all of the kids to sleep I mentioned that I felt strange but I couldn't really put it to words...he replied, "You mean it's strange to be tucking our kids in goodnight in one room, while watching Sophia breathe her last breaths in another" Well yes, that is exactly what I meant...for the first time in my life I realized that this world does not stop no matter what is going on in the next room. Kids still need to be fed, diapers still have to be changed and tables still have to be set... Thank you so much for all of the support we have recieved even from complete strangers you have lightened our load and you will never now how appreciated you are. Miss Sophia Grace was a true blessing and I believe she is playing in heaven with her big brother Jo-Jo now ( I told her make sure she bosses him around, since that is what all good sisters too)